Falling in & out.

♥Love & To Be Loved

Oh my, I can’t believe how fast time flies. It’s like I just stepped in year 2011 and now it’s the end of the year already. Let’s hope December will be better cause I really need that lol.

I’ve must say that this year is pretty harsh on me say, friendship, works, family, relatives and of course relationship. I breakdown I cry I stumble I fall, a couple of times. However from what I’ve encountered, I truly believe in the saying of everything happens for a reason.

On a brighter note, my work is my least concern right now I’m glad that I accepted this job offer. Despite some inevitable team conflicts, well, my colleagues are pretty awesome & I enjoy working with them.

And to be honest, it’s been ages since I feel this happy & blessed. I treasure everything and everyone I have right now right here. And one thing I realized, I can be loved by those I care this much. I mean how much they show me that I actually mean something to them., that I’m not replaceable or unnecessary, that they’ll make a lil’ effort so that I’ll stay, that my existence matters to them. :) Thank you so much loves, for all the supports when I thought I couldn’t make through it. Now I’m stronger than ever.

P/s: I just gotta thanks to that special someone. I don’t know what I’ll do without you around when I’m lost. You helped me HELL LOTS. Words can’t even describe how much you did for me. You’re always there you never lie to me. Thank you. You pointed out my wrongs, you taught me how to get over my bad habits, you won’t get sick of telling me how extraordinary how beautiful I am. You're like an angel sent for me. :)

I feel loved & precious. In fact I’m being pampered all this while just that I neglect the attention I already have due to the ONLY craves for the attention of SOMEONE.

Read something that I couldn’t agree more written by a friend, I was raised with first grade love so I’m not settling for second grade from no boy. I promised myself I wouldn't torture myself for someone who doesn’t even worth it. Be smart & be rational.

Btw, am back at home sweet home. I know I seem a lil’ bit like party animal for those who know me but the fact is I really love spending time with my family. Never mind just lazying around at home, watching DVD or just talk. I love my family more than anyone could imagine & I always know that they’re those who TRULY adore you JUST THE WAY YOU ARE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. They’re just gonna be there.And when I’m at home, I settle down & I take my time to order my inmost thoughts.

As I grow up, the world doesn't seem as pretty or perfect as it used to be. In fact it has its hideous side that I just wanna runaway from. Instead of pointing my fingers to everyone else for my dreadful year, I think it’s time to reflect on myself. My egoistic, my stubbornness, my intolerance, & my so-called principles. All I wanna say is my own attitudes contribute to my sucky year as well. I couldn’t throw the blames away because I myself are partly responsible for what happened as well. I guess my most humble & practical new year resolution would be working on my attitudes, I guess that’s a pretty good kickoff for my 2012! :)

And yeah, as for those who are still wondering why I disappeared from FB, please don’t blast my phone with the same question already. Lol. I’m just taking some time off from some chaos which really gives me severe migraine. I DIDN’T BLOCK ANYONE, I DEACTIVATE MY FB. The least thing I need now is drama, so I’ll activate my FB back when things are settled & when I feel better.

I’m really confused & bewildered right now. When you asked me to think on your behalf, please think on mine as well. How long or how much it gonna takes for you to KNOW/DIFFERENTIATE who to trust when your most beloved one betrayed you before. That’s the time I thought I SHOULD TRUST HIM/HER. Not even a slight doubts. But what happened in the end? I’m not blaming anyone here, I just want some to know how I feel. For the record, I didn’t want or I didn’t choose to be a mad girl who is full of suspicion. This is so tiring. I had insomnia, I couldn’t concentrate on my work. I had this before, I don’t wanna face this all over again. And yes, people change, everyone deserves a second chance. And yup, actions speak louder than words. That’s all I can say. :) I just want my simple life back. No drama, no conflicts, no lies, no hurts, at least not from my beloved ones. So am I asking too much?

Anyway, can’t wait for Christmas. Don’t you lovely people think the same way? ;)

Please listen to this song kay?



And you won't wanna miss this ;)


Yours truly, with happy grin. :D

Loves. Caryne. XO! :)

♥Can I rewind so that we can make it right?

♥Love & To Be Loved

She all laid up in bed with a broken heart

While I'm drinking Jack all alone in my local bar

And I don't know how we got into this mad situation

Only do things out of frustration

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard.

She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time

I've get a new job now in the unemployment time

We don't know how we got into this mess it's a God test

Somebody help us cause we're doing our best

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard.

But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine

Sit talking up all night

Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah.

We're smiling but we close to tears

Even after all these years

We just now got the feeling that we're meeting

FOR THE FIRST TIME.

Oh these times are hard

Yeah they're making us crazy

Don't give up on me baby.

The Script - For the first time

When I ask you to listen to the song, there's everything inside that I wanna let you know. :)

XX! Much lurves, Caryne.

♥A better day.

♥Love & To Be Loved

Hmm. I don't know why I'm still wide awake at this hour. Insomnia. My dark eye circles are getting super visible recently. I've been having mood swing and I think I seriously need a vacation. :) Friends are complaining that I was being way too emo for most of my posts because I used to have cheerful habit of mind. Lol. I'll be better loves. Following my path back to when things are not this complicated.


Well, enough with these craps. Let's continue with something happier. Remember my dearest roommie, Chiew Bee? We're very close to each others, we were roommies for almost 2 years? If I'm not mistaken? Reminiscing having pillow talks with her every night before we fall asleep, and how we got scared from the thunder & lightning during late rainy days, and how we showed each others our new apparels and catwalk inside our little room, and how we teased each others about our new flings she LOL at me/I LOL at her when any of us blushed, made me miss her even more. Haha. I still remember when we tease each others, our reactions would be exactly the same where we'll be rolling left and right with the blanket, blushed and smile, then shouted," NO ROOMMIEEEE, I DIDN'T!! / NO ROOMMIEEEE, WE'RE JUST FRIENDS!!" HAHAHA!

P/S: Still remember that roommie? ;) HEHE!


However, the funny part is, we never hang out together for the 2 years period where we stayed together. Funny aye? I guess it's because of the clashes of class schedules, hangout with our own gangs, assignments clashes, tests clashes and so on. Sad right? :/


Anyway, we had our first date recently! Oh well, I know it sounds cliche, but better late than never, no? ;)


Soooo, we went all crazy shopping from 1st Avenue to Prangin Mall, to Gurney Plaza and lastly B'worth (Pantai Bersih) for seafood feast! ;) Eh hem, and as for the seafood part, we were planning to go for Raja Uda tomyam mee as to fulfill my crave but I WAS FREAKING LOST and I ended up at Pantai Bersih. I seriously don't know how I got there. Lol. Luckily Nick and Kay Sen came to rescue. So we settled our meal there. But the food was freaking awesome though!

Very breathtaking seaview.

Very peaceful evening. :)

Being funny. Lol.

Camwhore tak henti2! Lol.

The so-so 'mee tiao'.

Soft shell crabs are fried with marinated egg yolk and slight spicy-ness due to curry powder makes it delicious and crisp. Highly recommend.
Mentis prawn fried with marinated egg yolk. It is so crispy that you can't stop eating once you have a bite of it.
A must for the order list. ;)

Since I missed my tomyam mee, so we ordered this tomyam soup just to fulfill my craves. Lol. Surprisingly, it was pretty good though ;)

I don't know whether this is LALA or not. I'm confused. There are so many types of LALA. I guess it's one type of it. Lil bit of sour and lil bit of spicy flavor. Pretty good choice as appetizer.

Sayangku.

Windy evening. Hence messy hair!

Funny attempt. Epic fail! Lol. Roommie and I kept on laughing cause we were so close to each others that we felt like we almost kissed! HAHAHA! And look at Nick's expression -.- Like kena forced wtf.

Samsung Galaxy S2! :)

New way of camwhore. Coach: The Professional Mr Sim Kay Sen.
Without flash.

Flash! @@

My old time fave. Big head shots.
Big thanks to my super roommie! Me likey!

I'm so in love with roommie's Sony Nex!
Am so getting one! Tempted to request from daddy!
But no way! I'm setting Dear Jaclyn as role model. ;)
Earn money myself and buy myself! Good luck to me!


I'll end the post with vain pics of mine.
<3 Much loves, Caryne. XX!

P/S: No matter how rare we see each others, no matter how far we're apart,
you always play an important part of my life. :)

♥Stereo Hearts.

♥Love & To Be Loved

It's been ages since I write. Life's been busy and things have changed with the passage of time. For those who don't know, I quit my job. People says nothing comes easy and you just gotta sacrifice or work hard in order to achieve the goal. Very true indeed. I suffered like HELL for my job, no kidding. I worked my ass off in order to prove that I'm able to do to the job right and I'm deserved to be in the firm. But somehow, my hard works are not appreciated and I've been told this is still not enough. I was so helpless and I broke down for like 932014932 times! Parent was pretty heartache and they advised me to quit saying, there are always better jobs out there, probably one which is much suitable for me. Daddy told me that salary doesn't matter, the most important thing is I'm happy working and that's that. Then all my relatives stepped in and I'm telling you, they are really good in making me cry like a baby girl. Lol. I can't help but feeling like I'm the most blessed girl in the world because of all the cares I always got. Not to mention my girlfriends who have been complaining non-stop and forcing me to quit. They were freaking worried about my safety since I'd to do OT 24/7 until 10pm or 11pm and there are quite a few robbery happened there at our parking lots. So all I wish now is, I could find a job that is suitable for me and my future. :)

The important thing in life is to have a great aim, and the determination to attain it.-- Goethe

1 thing that I'm glad it stays the same is we're still together. ♥ I'll be a big fat liar if I say that we're all good 24/7 because that's impossible. In fact, we have small and big conflicts. Hence arguments. Yes, sometimes we unintentionally throw some hurtful words towards each others and this really tore us apart. Anyway, I'm glad that after each quarrel we talked things out and reached full agreement.

Plus, we barely have time for each others which makes thing harder than it already is. Well, who doesn't want to spend time with their loved one and sometimes when I really miss him, I wish I can have him right next to me just to cuddle with him and tell him how much I miss him. But I gotta understand that he has to work and he gets tired after work. I wish to have his texts or have him call me frequently but I gotta understand that he's not a multitasker and he needs to concentrate on his work. I know sometimes I nag that he doesn't have enough time for me, but all I hope is some comforts from him then I'll be okay.

I want this relationship to work out, so I'll learn to be a good girlfriend. And I always believe action speaks louder than words so I'll prove it. ;) I hope he'll feel the same too? Teehee!


People says you don't know how much someone meant to you until you lose it. But having the slight thought of losing him kills me! Everytime I look at him, I feel like hugging him tight and never let go. The toughest moment for our date is saying goodbye with him at the end of our date because I don't know how long it's gonna be until our next one. :'(
And I just love to see him sleeping soundly beside me. So adorable. That's the moment I know he meant the world to me and I just want to love him as much as I can.


I love you, bie. :) Hell lots.

My heart's a stereo
It beats for your, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo



XX! Much lurves, Caryne.

♥Imma let you walk me out :)

I tend to think a lot. I think it's in the gene, from mum.

I don't linger around something that is over. I think it's in the gene, from dad.

I'm emotional. I think it's in the gene, from mum.

I look happy & merry all the time. I think it's in the gene, from dad.

I fell down hard, I stand up stronger even I'm hurt inside. I think it's in the gene, from mum.

I'm stubborn. I depend on myself. I think it's in the gene, from – oh well – both of them.

I miss my girls. Big time.

Another happy thing to share, I got in Grant Thornton. I have no idea why they take me anyway. I wish they wouldn't change their mind though :S Lol.

I wish I would get my car ASAP! I can't wait to start working already! :D PRAYING HARD THAT NOTHING GOES WRONG.

Pretty pretty PLEASEEEEEE!

Yours truly. :)

XX! Much lurves.

♥Happy birthday to ME! :D

Sorry for the long absence loves. I've been gone missing from FB for one week because I went Penang & stayed with my girls with 1 whole week. And there's no wifi there, so I think that's pretty much explained why I've been missing in action for so long? ;)

Yours truly.

Well, time flies and my birthday is over! Anyway, I had very simple but very memorable birthday celebration with my loverboy & my girls! Too bad bff Jac didn't have time to celebrate with me. That's the sad part. :(

I always against in the saying of taking things for granted. Nobody is responsible for treating you good, so if they do, stop taking it for granted, appreciate it instead. And I always believe that simplest thing is blessing. I don't need luxurious birthday celebration, as long as my loverboy, my family and my close fwens are with me, I'm satisfied. And I really never expect anything, so it was rather surprising! :D

So, here goes, March 14, bffs Dayah, Justhrin, Vivi and Natalia went to Qbay and left me all alone at home. They said they have class afterwards, so I couldn't tag along. I had to rot at their apartment, doing nothing. And the worse part was, they don't have internet line!!! So, I don't know how I survived the whole afternoon. Glad that I did! Sooo, after they finished class, they came back and fetch me out for dinner nearby. They were discussing their gym plan or swimming plan later on, and I was like awww, no birthday countdown. I was quite blue sigh. But then I understood that they were tired for the whole day class and stuffs, so I'm okay with a simple celebration on my birthday itself.

Once we back at apartment, these girls started to be real busy running here and there in the apartment, hid inside the room whispering silently & laughing loudly for I-don't-know-what reason. I was too bored indulged playing my stupid computer games that I didn't notice anything. Furthermore, I saw Vivi was blowing her hair so I asked her why washing her hair before gym since she's gonna get sweaty afterwards. She was like, "Err, no lar, I didn't wash my hair." And I believed, I believed someone who is blowing their hair and claimed they did not wash their hair. Okay, wtf, I don't know why I never doubted that. After that they said they were ready for gym so I said I wanna tag along since I was too bored. Then vivi said," she can follow us as well?" I was like, " Why roommie?! Why I can't go along?!" Then they all were like, "Sure sure, jom jom!" So when we were walking out, they all wore slippers. So I was curious, "Are you girls going to wear slippers for gym?" They looked at me, and smiled. Okay, I STILL believed they were going gym. You can call me stupid now. So we took lift and they were heading poolside and I saw a cake on the beach chair, so I knew it was a surprise by that moment. I hopped on my feet, clapping hands and shouted YAY MY CAKE! But then they kept looking around as if they were looking for someone so I was like don't tell me there were somebody else because I was wearing the freaking big tee & flip flops & specs! I went wtf when 3 of them walking out from the corner, the loverboy, Mugun & Ikhwan. I was in pure shock. Bie gave me a hug when he saw me & wished me happy birthday; Mugun, as usual, mocked me by 'COMPLIMENTING' my attire. Lol. Btw, Mugun, I know you like my tee don't ya? :P And I was surprised Ikhwan was there as well. Thanks for coming all the way from BM just to celebrate my bday! I'm touched! :')

And oh btw, I was thrown into the pool, thanks guys -.- And they tried sooooo hard to prank me by hiding 1 of my cellphone without realizing I still have the other one. So they were trying sooo hard to get me by the pool and took away my cellphone so that they can throw me inside the pool. So Vivi snatched my cellphone by chance while I was texting. Then I straight ran far away from the pool, but Bie acted like he was very furious about me texting someone so he approached me, pretending he was interrogating me. After that, all of them started to approach me and some of them grabbed my hands, some of them grabbed my legs and dragged me to the pool. And when I started shouting, they some more asked me not to shout. Like wtf, you guys were trying to throw me into the pool and expect me to accept silently? -.- Lol! Anyway, they succeeded. But all of us were in the pool in the end so it was quite fun after all! :P I had a lot of fun with loverboy and my friends. Teehee! I love you all soooooo much! *big bear hugsss*

My birthday cake!

My bieee! ♥

I expected teasing from them. Lol. These mindmakers are genius enough to ask us to share 1 cheery together -.-


P/s: I'm praying they would accidentally deleted the video they took. -.-

As on my birthday, I had dinner with my girls. Nothing can be better than having dinner with close fwens and yakking the night away with them.

DAYAH! :D

Justhrin Yeoh.

Vivian Huang.

P/s: Aren't my babes gorgeous?! :D

Btw, I went for an interview in the morning. After that bie fetch me for his all time fave Nasi Bukit & my all time fave, TUTTI FRUTTI!

And lastly, tittle tattle session at my least fave spot. Oh well, who cares if your bffs are around ;)

BIE! How do I look with the shirt? :P

Dear Loverboy,

Thanks for the surprise bie! I really loved it so much. Love the cake, love the present & everything! And thank you so much for throwing me into the pool, you'll get yours soon *evil grins* You know I'm not good in expressing myself. But even if I didn't show it, but I felt truly blessed for having you as my boyfie. Thanks for the efforts you did for my birthday and I know you want me to have a memorable birthday for me and you did! :) This is our first time celebrating my birthday together and I wish you will still be by my side for my birthday every year in the future. MUAHHH! I feel like hugging you tight now. :)

Dear bffs,

You girls are the most awesome people ever! You know that? Thanks for being a part of the surprise! Lol. And you girls were brilliant in acting seriously. Gym with slippers, seriously? Lol! Well, luckily I was blur enough & didn't notice it was a surprise. I feel like I'm actually matter being around you all. I never feel unwanted. The feeling that I always searching for.

Imma happy girl! :D

XX! Much lurves, Caryne.