Saturday, November 8, 2014

Stolen, memories.

♥Love & To Be Loved

Waking up in the strangest room I could recognize, and found myself barely able to keep my eyes wide open. When I tried to search for anyone or anything familiar, the best friend found me awake as he moved his sight off his phone and screamed 'thank God you're awake!' and planted a quick peck on my forehead. And way before I managed to grab his arm for some answers, he ran and hopped like a rabbit out of the room and got a doc back with him. I tried to catch both of their attention but they were too engaged in some conversation I presumed 'bout my condition so none heard me.

That was when I felt the this unbearable twinge on my left arm even I tried to move my arm just an-inch. Pardon my manner but fuck the IV drip! I uttered a yelp feebly, the conversation winded up, best friend noticed me and hurried to my side, like finally. 'Would you please stay still?' I ignored his gentle reminder and continued to solve the puzzles by expecting some explanations from him.

'You passed out! Thank God you weren't driving babe! Like seriously, I almost got myself heart attack!'

I could feel my head throbbing with pain beyond endurance before I got the rough picture of several fragmented pieces I was able to recall. Bad gastric in the morning... Took a day off... Sickness got worse I decided to buzz the best friend to fetch me for doc consultation... Texting in the car... Got upset & emotional for some replies... The last scene I could recall was getting off the car and things kinda like lost track since then.

I was told that I blackout once I got off the car and the best friend carried me back into it and bolted us to hospital. That's how I end up being admitted.

'Gastric gone worsen?' I asked.

'Low blood pressure, to be exact,' doc finally came in the picture.

'Why so?' I thought it was the gastric.

'Are you on proper meals? Have you been taking three meals in proper portions?' there goes the interrogation.

'Weak appetite. Anything serious?' I've got a lil' nervous.

'It will be if you do not practice healthy diet already. Apparently there is a sign of calorie deficiency and lack of rest. Please have adequate carbs intake and have plenty of rest. And also, most importantly, loosen up yourself mentally and do not get too emotional. Just relax.' and the doc smiled to me and the best friend, then dismissed himself.

Everything happens for a reason, cliche. But thinking on a bright side, I could get rid of the tedious work for a day and so, isn't it? I remembered the rest of the day being stuffed like pig by the best friend and took away my phone whenever I didn't take my rest on time. Though you were acting like my annoying maid, but thanks for everything babe! Haha!

Being work-free for the day helped me think a lot.

- When someone intends to leave, set him free. There's no point holding someone's back. If you meant a world to him, he would've stay. If he's not, life moves on anyways.

- Do not assume things, go confront/confess to that particular party, no matter how it's gonna end up to be. It could've work, this thing you thought impossible could've been worked out among us, but the chance faded as you yourself decided on your own, this is not possible.

- Treasure those around you, love yourself more and save those precious tear of yours.

- I'm in charge of my own life, hence decisions. I don't need anyone else to make a decision on my behalf, or assume my answers instead of confronting me. While things go wrong, I was expected to bear whatever consequences or ending you prefer. No, I'm not letting this happens in my life, ever again.

- Love is a big word. :)

Ughhh, hope I'll get better and rid of this 24/7 dizziness/feeble at soonest.

With loves,