Friday, November 28, 2008

Bleeding love. Bleeding heart.

♥` Live for My Dream.. ♪

原本以为已经潇洒的放下了,
看回为他做的一周年小册子,眼泪又在不听话的流。
我知道是不舍。
你们一定觉得我很傻吧?
可是我觉得自己已经垮了一大步,因为我不再期望了。

所以朋友们,
要好好珍惜身边最爱的人。
把每一天相处的时间当作最后一天相处的时刻。
因为我们不会知道他们何时会从我们的生活中永远的离去。

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

I'm recovering.

♥` Live for My Dream.. ♪

I watched Sex and The City season 5 all over again.
Charlotte's marriage spoilt, Carrie's relationship and so on were not going quite well.
In fact, Charlotte was in great pain and struggling in uncertainty.
Luckily, there are friends who always be with her and support her.


I think of myself, who is having the same situation as well.
And yes, as lucky as Charlotte is, I got bff who always support me and worry about me.
I'm moving on and I'm feeling better.
I just wanna tell they all, dont worry, I'm okay ^^


Bff, Vivian, called me and sms-ed me all the time to make sure that i'm okay.
She even want to rush to my side when i was hurted.
She totally understand how i feel as she been through the same situation as well.
It really hurts. In fact, it's killing me.
I can understand her now.


Bff, Ying Ying, who be with me all the time.
She was the one who hugged me and comforted me when i was hurted.
I cannot accept the fact once i got it.
I kept crying and crying my heart out.
I felt like somebody tears my heart apart and my heart is bleeding.
I told her i miss him, i dont know what to do.
He was so far from me and i cant even reach him and ask him why this is happening.
Out of a sudden, everything is gone in a night.
It was unacceptable.
I'm still holding to his promises, i sent him to the airport that day, and i'm waiting him to come back and watch movie together.
She cried when she listened to me, and she hugged me really tight.
I felt lost yet abit glad because of her.


Bff, Jiayi, called me from USA.
I'm touched. It's like she really want to comfort me and help me to get over this.
So she called me.
I realize that distance is not a problem.
If he/she really meant to reach you, he/she will find a way somehow.
Or else, any reasons are just reasons.


Bff, Doreen, called me from KL.
She told me, maybe this relationship did hurted me deeply but dont lose faith in love.
I cannot judge all of the guys the same way, this'd be unfair to me and to my true soul-mate.
It's true, what i have to do now is cry hard, get over, and move on.
After heart-broken, life still have to move on.
But i guess i really trust him, his faith to me, and all of his promises.
In the end, everything is like gone.
Without any pre-warning.
Thunderstorm came and swept everything away.


Thanks Samuel di, who always call me from S'pore.
He's the one who is able to cheer me up and lighten my day!
Di, you really cute lah~ ^^
I'll go S'pore someday, dont worry.


Thanks Woei Jiunn, who always want to protect me.
Being there whenever i need advises or comforts.
He's the one who always let me win and care about my feelings. ^^


Thanks HonMin, who always be realistic!
Even to me when i was hurted -.-
HOWEVER, i know he just want to wake me up and prevent me from hoping for something that is impossible.
He also will call me whenever something happened to me!


Surprisingly, i want to thanks Huan Yew as well.
He always looks blur but he comforted me when i told him all of these!
Amazing huh? XD
Anyway, thanks Huan Yew! ^^


And also to Xing Yong.
I know i treated him cruely, still he doesnt mind.
Instead, he treats me nicer and nicer.
Which makes me guilty.

I spent my time with family when i was having my holiday.
I felt warm and secure.
They're the only one who wont betray me and lie to me.
They're the only one who really care and love me.


TO ALL OF MY BFFs,
I love y'all.
I really do.
Dont worry about me anymore.
I'm getting better and I will be.
Thanks for always be there for me! ^^


伤心情歌过期变了
你对眼还是红红的
生命中有些过客
现在不过多了一个
结束了何必再拉扯
有心事总该遗忘的
你听着听着又哭了
我明白的谁都难免不舍

别再哭了多不值得
笑一笑把爱情看透彻
生活苦涩该他负责
他会后悔他做了这选择
别再哭了多不值得
失去也是另一种获得
伤心情歌不属你的
幸福不一定非爱谁不可
难熬的会经过的

伤心情歌过期变了
你对眼还是红红的
生命中有些过客
现在不过多了一个
结束了何必再拉扯
有心事总该遗忘的
你听着听着又哭了
我明白的谁都难免不舍

别再哭了多不值得
笑一笑把爱情看透彻
生活苦涩该他负责
他会后悔他做了这选择
别再哭了多不值得
失去也是另一种获得
伤心情歌不属你的
幸福不一定非爱谁不可
爱错了又能如何

别再哭了不值得
笑着把爱情看透彻
生活苦涩他负责
他会后悔他做了这选择
别再哭了多不值得
失去也是另一种获得
伤心情歌不属你的
幸福不一定非爱谁不可
难熬的会经过的


Thursday, November 13, 2008

Everything is ended, for good.

♥` Live for My Dream.. ♪

To Wu Xin Yi.
Read the last letter from me to you.
Click here.

Thank you.

RM 0.25!!

♥` Live for My Dream.. ♪


Okay okay. I know it's nothing.

It just RM 0.25.

But i'm still very excited!

So i wanna share this with ma peeps!

Guys, do view my blog always~

Even it's boring. =X



Muahx, love y'all!



Until next time.

Caryne The Fish.

Baby Caryne is HOMESICK! OMG?

♥` Live for My Dream.. ♪

Most of the people said I'm better suited to straight hair.
Well, i took a risk and WASTED $$ by did a perm.
Even my aunty asked me why i want to perm my hair. -.-


Anyway, nevermind loh~
It's always good to try out new hairstyle, right~ :p
I'm sick of my natural hair, so you know.


Just so you know, i'm going back home today! Yippie!
Though just for one day. -.-
Oh my effing god! Working is making me homesick!
I want to get salary. *sniff sniff*


Ohya, was rather satisfying with the sales yesterday.
Me, myself earned about RM 478! *applause applause* ^^


I miss him.


Until next time.
Caryne The Fish.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

说好的,幸福呢?

♥` Live for My Dream.. ♪

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

The way you used to love me, i lost it.

♥` Live for My Dream.. ♪

Am sick, for few days.
It's okay since nobody cares anyway.


Boss asked us to check all of the stocks!
God, we were exhausted.
Well, it helped me to stop thinking too much.
I'm learning to ignore. I really do.


Cam-whore while nobody around.
In love with the white Everlast cap and cam-whore with bff, J, as well.
As always, the sales suck!



Until next time.
xo xo. Caryne The Fish.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Hair perm.

♥` Live for My Dream.. ♪

Finally get my hair perm.
My very first time! XD
would post up pics later.
Bff, J, introduced me to Extension!
Thanks darling!


Honey called me yesterday.
I'm goddamn delighted.


Speaking of which, met bff, V, again.
In fact, she accompany me to my hair perm.
I was so glad she was there.
Or else, i'd be killed by boredom!


And oh, dear, thanks so much for tupperware.
Actually, you treat me nicer than i did.
Tsk tsk.
JYJY in your studies and finish all the chapters in time!
Love ya.


Until next time.
xo xo Caryne. The Fish.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Tags from Chris!


♥` Live for My Dream.. ♪

1.) Could u actually accept sex before marriage? if let u choose, u rather have sex before marriage or non sex marriage(no sex after marriage)?
Nope. I could not accept sex before marriage. And it's impossible having non-sex marriage, i suppose.

2.) situation: your father(let say,dun beat me.)has got a serious disease and need 1million dollar. you can have a large amount of money(1million) if u break up with the man/woman that u love vy much.
I would breakup with the my man, if he really do love me, he would understand. My daddy is much important, btw.

3.)would u like to receive a diamond ring(from a rich boy/galfriend) or a gold ring but your boy/galfriend use his whole month salary to buy it for your birthday present?why?
Gold ring. Though i hate gold. But it's the heart that count.

4.)dinner: would u like to eat dinner cooked by your boy/galfriend or go to a highclass restaurant?why?
Dinner cooked by my loverboy. I think that'd be goddamn romantic!

5.)assume you go for a plastic surgery, n after the surgery u found ur face is exactly same like the ppl that u hate the most(EG.leela, she also go for the same plastic surgeon),

wat would u do+why?:
b.)change ur hairstyle or makeup or fashion style to make u better than him/her
Since i hate her so much, must be better than her lah! lol.

6.)u prefer hugs or kisses?why?(from facebook)
Hugs. Cus i dont like kisses. I just love hugging! It feels nice what.

7.)who is your msn favourite chatter?
I dont know. O_O

8.)if u /ur girlfriend pregnant, and u /ur gf is/are goin off to oversea to further your study, will you stay or ask her to go for a abortion?
I would pursue my study no matter what. Maybe abortion if necessary. The baby wont wont grow up.

9.)if you are able to go back to past time, when u wana go?
The time where daddy and mummy married.

10.)if u can be any character of any series drama(eg. hk, america, taiwan), who u wana be?why?
I want to be Serena Van der Woodson, cuz i'm fugly and i wished so badly to outshine myself yet friendly.

Chris! Thanks me for supporting your lame questions ah~

xo xo. Caryne The Fish.

Keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding in love

♥` Live for My Dream.. ♪

Final ended.
And no, i dont feel excited at all.
In fact, not even close.


I am so fcking upset with myself!
I dont know I'm such an idiot.
And now, i declare myself idiot.


I dont know why i keep doing some unforgivable stupid mistakes in tests!
It's effing irritating!
Yeah, I'm a total loser!
Sometimes, i felt like i dont have the qualifications to study at all.
What the hell?!


Having full-time job for the whole holiday, with J. :)
Currently working in Everlast at QB.
Get to know couple of friends there. And the daily jobs are boring!

Come and have a look sometimes! :)



There's many stuffs i wanna talk about.
Basketball match which was so outdated, hung-out with bffs and so on.


Inti basketball team won the intercollege basketball games.
Go Inti!
I have to say, the games was excited and HOT!
And i have no idea our inti students would be so supportive.
They were like cheering for our school team all the way!
And i absolutely enjoy being crazy with them!


Hung-out with bff, Cheryl few weeks ago.

Poor Fishy. T.T

Cruel Cheryl or KJ. I cant remember -.-

Tempting food food food!

Will update more often.

Until next time.

Love♥
Caryne. The Fish.