♥Love & To Be Loved
It's been ages since I write. Life's been busy and things have changed with the passage of time. For those who don't know, I quit my job. People says nothing comes easy and you just gotta sacrifice or work hard in order to achieve the goal. Very true indeed. I suffered like HELL for my job, no kidding. I worked my ass off in order to prove that I'm able to do to the job right and I'm deserved to be in the firm. But somehow, my hard works are not appreciated and I've been told this is still not enough. I was so helpless and I broke down for like 932014932 times! Parent was pretty heartache and they advised me to quit saying, there are always better jobs out there, probably one which is much suitable for me. Daddy told me that salary doesn't matter, the most important thing is I'm happy working and that's that. Then all my relatives stepped in and I'm telling you, they are really good in making me cry like a baby girl. Lol. I can't help but feeling like I'm the most blessed girl in the world because of all the cares I always got. Not to mention my girlfriends who have been complaining non-stop and forcing me to quit. They were freaking worried about my safety since I'd to do OT 24/7 until 10pm or 11pm and there are quite a few robbery happened there at our parking lots. So all I wish now is, I could find a job that is suitable for me and my future. :)
The important thing in life is to have a great aim, and the determination to attain it.-- Goethe
1 thing that I'm glad it stays the same is
we're still together. ♥ I'll be a big fat liar if I say that we're all good 24/7 because that's impossible. In fact, we have small and big conflicts. Hence arguments. Yes, sometimes we unintentionally throw some hurtful words towards each others and this really tore us apart. Anyway, I'm glad that after each quarrel we talked things out and reached full agreement.
Plus, we barely have time for each others which makes thing harder than it already is. Well, who doesn't want to spend time with their loved one and sometimes when I really miss him, I wish I can have him right next to me just to cuddle with him and tell him how much I miss him. But I gotta understand that he has to work and he gets tired after work. I wish to have his texts or have him call me frequently but I gotta understand that he's not a multitasker and he needs to concentrate on his work. I know sometimes I nag that he doesn't have enough time for me, but all I hope is some comforts from him then I'll be okay.
I want this relationship to work out, so I'll learn to be a good girlfriend. And I always believe action speaks louder than words so I'll prove it. ;) I hope he'll feel the same too? Teehee!
People says you don't know how much someone meant to you until you lose it. But having the slight thought of losing him kills me! Everytime I look at him, I feel like hugging him tight and never let go. The toughest moment for our date is saying goodbye with him at the end of our date because I don't know how long it's gonna be until our next one. :'(
And I just love to see him sleeping soundly beside me. So adorable. That's the moment I know he meant the world to me and I just want to love him as much as I can.
I love you, bie. :) Hell lots.
My heart's a stereo
It beats for your, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note
Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo
XX!
Much lurves, Caryne.