Saturday, May 11, 2013

Hidup Rakyat ; Hidup Malaysia !

♥Love & To Be Loved

I admit, I am never a fan of politic. I know I should've pay more attention to our country politics and every ongoing issues, but I always regard such matters with apparent unconcern. I rely on my parents for most up-to-date news information, which I have guilty conscience of. To top that up, I stood abashed, feeling utterly embarrassed when one of my close China friend, who stayed here for almost 6-7 years, getting so mad discussing our current election issue with me.

To be frank, I have complete unclear picture of what I was doing back in 5 years back during election. I'm ashamed for my former action and attitude. Speaking of which, I'm truly touched by knowing how united our citizens could be judging from the massive crowds in  every ongoing #505 events. For every single person who made it in any of the event, you guys deserved our most honorable respect! I've heard how these fighters parked miles away at highway, and walked on feet to the Kelana Jaya Stadium; I've heard how these fighters crammed in a tiny little field in Esplanade @ Penang, and the estimated amount of participants reached up to 100k! I'm literally speechless & impressed with their conducts.

I believe its not only me, how many of us felt so upset and dissatisfied to eye on such dirty election? By resorting to low cunning when the government couldn't get what they want openly and honestly, it marks a downhill towards Malaysia's democracy & civilization.

To demand a decent and reputable way to claim the country, we were labelled as oppositions or even forced to bear all those racist and bias articles on the press and medias.

In a word, Malaysians are discerning. The citizen's eyes will not be deceived in the method of election being carried. You may won the election in the most disreputable way ; but you've lost the heart of citizens and are, beyond doubt, being infamous for your guilt of plenty of infamies!

Thank you Malaysians, to fight for a better future and our deserved rights.

Caryne xx

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Allow the sorrow to be gone, & let the happiness in.

♥Love & To Be Loved

Right after hanging up that call, and I cried for lesser than 5 mins. And then I sit back and thought to myself, is this still not enough? 3 years of on and offs, were these still not enough? Knowing where this will end, what are we insisting on?

So, I've decided. Enough is enough. I might be just saying, but lemme prove to myself and to those who care. Though this is never easy, but I got through this before. It wasn't that hard after all. :)

Do you realized how many chances you gave up?
Do you realized how long this has been dragging on?
Do you realized whether your sacrifice is appreciated and paid off?

Yes, often I've got that a lot from my dearest ones. I always wanted to move on, I never asked for this back after that once and only time. But somehow I've allowed his begging and requests of getting back together to fool with me, partially because of the feeling is still there.

And so, I blamed myself for that. No one else but myself. If only I could be cruel enough, to be persistent enough, it should be settled long time ago. And by right, I should be able to let someone who truly loves me sharing every bits of my life with me by now already. In this case, I don't have to be jelly of other couples being so lovey dovey by seeing their pictures anymore. 

Well, by which, that day will be coming soon I believe! But right now, I've my goals for my future and all. Time to fulfill them one by one.

Several trips I've planned starting June so YAYYYYYY! Brand new beginning brand new life brand new me; A HAPPY ME! :)

Me promise, no more whines, no more sad faces from now on.

Yours truly,
Caryne!

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Turn up the love.

♥Love & To Be Loved

You know life is pretty darn awesome when the toughest decision you have to make is who to hang out with, how to not over-clash your schedule for outings and what-to-wear when you doll-up yourself for a meet up.

That's how my life goes these days. I feel like my life is back to the right track, slowly. And I could hop on my bed & dance to the musics I played in my room nowadays then bring it to the dancefloor lol, like a lighthearted child. I've gone out from my little isolated zone and started to mingle with my long-time-no-hang friends. Never been so freed and cheerful until now!

Sister went Krabi and I wished so badly that I could join her trip as well. Too bad I'm not managed to get leaves for her travel period! :/ what a bum gahh! Hopefully another short escape of mine would actually work! Fingers crossed.

Till then. Will back for more cheerful posts! XO!


Toast to beautiful souls in my life and the greater blissful year ahead.

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Thursday, January 3, 2013

Happy new year!

♥Love & To Be Loved

Happy new year dolls! How was everyone's new year celebration or the celebration still prolongs until now? ;)

Life was falling apart few weeks back, for that point of my life, I felt like I lost everything I treasure, got my heart broken pretty bad and I let my emotions taking over me. I am way too stubborn and persistent, good and bad, whenever I encountered difficulty in my life, I tend to take the unnecessary pains to study the insoluble problems. Only until I hit the dead end, that's when I've quite grasped the situation.

After struggling in the same pace for so long, I finally accept the fact that at some points of my life, there's a possibility that people that you thought was a keeper gonna hurt you so much. All you can do is to forgive and forgo. When you do, you'll be able to turn around and face the broken piece of your life and be thankful to those people you've met throughout the course of your life. Because of them, you've opened your heart. They're somehow important to you that you're willing to be vulnerable by exposing yourself to them. Yes, you've got hurt, but I believe in one way or another it helps to build your character and enhance your inner strength.

I'm glad I took the initiative to head down to his place and had a talk, face to face.

When my life is in a mess and my heart couldn't take another single matter anymore, I isolate myself. Being in my own world with Lana Del Rey's voice playing at the background, disengaged from the crowds. Its like giving a break to my soul and sanity. I've lost cos I let myself to drown in this pain. I allow the devil inside me to takeover. But after being alone and calming myself, I feel cheerful and carefree, like the positive side of me re-emerged. Instead of hold onto something that doesn't belong to me anymore, I chose to let go for my main purpose is for everyone I adore to be happy. Everyone deserves happiness and to search for their ultimate one-and-only soulmate. I pray... :)

Now I'm able to tell someone who's going through the same thing 'Been there, done that'. But I survived and transformed into a better person. If you feel hurt, cry and breakdown as much as you can. Crying doesn't indicate you're weak, it only means you're being tough for way too long. So don't bottle up your emotions.  Cry when you feel sad ; laugh out loud when you're happy ; smile when you feel blissful.

Even though life might seems hopeless and puzzled, but heads up! Do not let anything dull your spirits. Whatever happened in your life, let it be good or bad, they happen for a reason. At the end of the day, every single thing is going to fall perfectly in place.

Beautiful dinner with my loves. 
Even though not all of them will be in the pictures but you know who you are.
I'll post up the rest very soon. I promise.
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With much loves, Caryne. X.

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Unicorn unicorn!

♥Love & To Be Loved

 I wanna dream of unicorn tonight. :)

Every morning I wake up and I'll give myself a big smile. Never frown because you lost something that is unworthy. In fact, smile because the best is yet to come. Whatever will be, eventually will be.

Like they told me, they don't pity me because I'm not losing something worth keeping. Keep on smiling because you never know who will fall to that smile again. :3 

Nights loves.


Yours truly in little red dress.

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Never look back & keep on smiling.

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Saturday, December 29, 2012

A letter to my Guardian angel.

♥Love & To Be Loved

Hola loves. New year is around the corner so do you have any plan in mind already? Hehe! As for me,I'm still having dilemma whether to travel down Kayelle for a suite party with him and the friends or I'll just spend my newyear here. Ugh why there is only one day holiday. I should've a week at the very least lol!

Well, I know people are started to question around how I am after everything happened. And frankly it was hard. But after everything happened here and there, every immature, irresponsible and childish act of him, I'm glad I let this go. And to found people better around me and WITH ME, I'm living a better life. I just hope my money will be returned ASAP as I know he can spend for his leisure but never return me. Once the money is returned, I can totally rid from everything, once and for all and move on with someone who truly love me.

To the angel of mine,

Thanks for pampering me all these while. Thanks for treating me like your only one while you've so many girls after you. Yet you can give me the most secureness ever.
Most importantly., thanks for waiting for me all this while and gave me plenty of times to get over and start over. I promise you I'll try my best.
You totally changed my mind, someone's rich and good-looking is not necessary a cheater/playboy/scumbag. In fact, they can be quite decent and loyal. Since I met someone who doesn't have that qualifications but cheating/partying/show-off are his hobby. I was so blind, I admit.
Do not wait for me okay? :) Everything will be, eventually will be. <3 p="p">

With lotsa love,
Caryne.

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Pieces of my 2012!

♥Love & To Be Loved

Is the Xmas atmosphere still linger around? I hope everyone had a blessed Xmas. I, myself, immersed in the most blissful and peaceful Christmas this year. Not too wild and fanatical but at the very least I was with my dearest precious all through this Christmas. Was utterly distraught a day back because was being ignored. That wasn't the worst feeling ever, worried about him is. Perhaps we never got lost intact for this long. My mind was in tumult as I was worried something bad happened to him. Well, its not even close.

However, time to move on. My current situation become my loves' concerns. All of them are trying to keep me occupied and I really feel blessed and loved. I can't express how much you guys touched my heart. I swear.

Since my previous posts were quite depressing for current jubilee, I guess a few pictures would add to the gaiety of this joyful season. What did you do throughout the year? For mine, this has been a rocky year for me, but I believe bad days don't last long. In fact I'm looking forward for better year 2013 ahead. *fingers crossed*

I've so much details to add on every single event. But consider this as teaser to the more detailed one alright? :3

Last minute to Heineken Thirst, which I'll definitely kill myself if I didn't go. 

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Coussie love's birthday bash. Hawaiian theme and the party was exaggerating. Paparazzi, traffic polices, red carpet, royalty guests, sports cars as birthday present, you named it.

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Wink!

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Coussie Nana is so fricking adorable!

Pre-christmas lunchie to satisfy my Sushi Zanmai's crave! Scallops and salmon were heaven!

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Way too extravagance lunch for two.

Company's Xmas eve gifts exchange! Lots of laughter...
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And right after my office's gift exchange sessions, I have another gift exchange sessions zomg.
Guess what.. one of them even brought knives! UNBELIEVABLE.

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OMGEE!

Got dragged to Soju and Cuvee! So there goes my long-time-no-see friends bumping sessions. Lol.
Didn't take picture with 'baby'!Such a small world really! He knows my friends and he doesn't know that those are my friends & I didn't expect that he knows those friends of mine! The most awkward part is he can't recognize me then I've to tell him, I'm XX's ex-girlfriend don't you remember?! And he smacked his head and recalled haha! 
He said I changed a lot. Did I? :/ 

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Several house party, the Avare, and so on...

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Hello road trip to Kayelle again!
 
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Yours truly.

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The loves. Loving this picture even though I look crappy. :(

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Sharene spent her Xmas with us instead of her boyfriend lol.


Okay people. Time to hit the sack! I promise I'll blog more alright? <3 p="p">


With loves, Caryne the tough cookie. :P

Sunday, December 23, 2012

♥Love & To Be Loved

Morning early birdies. I'm up early today! Surprise surprise. I'm still having a tad bit hangover from last night's wines and liquors. But aunty made me homemade coffee once I'm off my bed, ahh, it never feels so good cuddling in the comfy sofas sipping a cup of hot aromatic coffee. Not to mention the early morning city view from my current location is breathtaking. I really want to share it with you all, but due to some reason, I couldn't.

I know the blog entry and a Facebook status last night startled most of my friends. I've got plenty of phone calls and texts and whatsapps from my fellow friends to ensure I'm alright. Don't worry loves, I'm perfectly fine. Really. To be frank, I never feel this secured and being appreciated before. Nightmare is over! :)

I survived day 3. In fact, I feel blessed. :3

His current wallpaper lol.
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Saturday, December 22, 2012

Xmas marks the end of the year, the end of my disastrous relationship. :)

♥Love & To Be Loved

Hola loves.

So 21st December is not the end of the world but its the end of 2 years-disastrous relationship of mine. My friends would know that I never confide my relationship conflicts to them with the concern of people might misunderstood him due to my one-sided and personal opinions. But it truly irks me when I stay quiet, then my personality got all twisted and distorted because of untrue remarks of his especially when he's flirting with a girl or cock-talk with a bro. So yes, I want to speak on my behalf, once and for all.

Although what I was doing last night was crying to myself, deleting every single picture of us and dying inside, I felt better when my phone is clean and rid of the memories. And forgot to mention, what he did was heading out with friends, getting drunk then called me for all those so-called remorseful confessions. But turning around, he started to chat with other girls. Oh please, spare me from all these dramas.

A thing that I really wanna stress here, watch out girls, think twice if he started to so-called 'borrow' money from you but never return. And by giving you all those excuses that 'I don't have money currently' but have totally no problem going to drinks or spending money on anything else. And I really laughed out loud when he said something like he doesn't bother talking to a working lady who feeds on rich guy after knowing I've been hanging out with someone. Says a little boy who feed on girls' hard-earned money. Plus common sense people, if I'm that materialistic, I wouldn't tolerate him and give him chances after so many times he cheated on me or insulted me.

Loyalty wise, right. I wouldn't blame those girls that have been flirted with him. Yes I do hate them but never mind. Karma will serve them right. We are all girls, so if breaking a girl's heart and faith is none of your concern, I believe you'll have yours soon. As for him, it's alright. I admit, I do check his Facebook at some points cause he kept denying what he did and I just have to confirm it! I do admit to him I check his Facebook and I found out rubbish that he'd done. For the record, I'm not clingy AT ALL. The fact is we did not hang out that often and what makes me a clingy girlfriend now? Trying to flirt and destroying my character? Try harder boy. But girls, really? If you do trust everything he said, let's see what happened.

Speaking of attitude, hmm, I wouldn't want to say much. You could ask his close friends (as in those who mingle with him long enough), you would know the truth. But people, backstabbing is really bad. You heard the rumors from others that goes like 'hey, she/he said this and that about you' or 'I know her/him, he's this kinda bastard/bitches', please don't be hesitate and go confront the people that the backstabber mentioned. You will find out that it's not entirely true, not even close. So if you heard something bout me from him or anyone else, please do confront me instead of fully take in and profiling me already.

And t his close friends, I promise there's no turning back. No getting back together. Come to think of it, how worse you can be to cause your close friends to warn the girlfriend about him. You tell me. :) But it's all in the past right now, thanks God, I stood up stronger.

As I'm typing this, I'm already out of town and I'm gonna have some nice warm Xmas pre-celebration with a bunch of nice people. Nice people with better mature mindset, of course haha!

Merry Xmas dolls. Do appreciate your loved one and those who truly treasure you. Never ever let them go. And for those who are as heartbroken as I am, you've gone this far! Let's do this together. :)

Christmas marks the end of the year, and the end of my disastrous relationship. And toast to the beautiful souls in my life.



Yours truly,
Caryne.

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Santa Claus is coming to town! :)

♥Love & To Be Loved

Ohmygee! I can't believe we stepped into December right nao!Don't you feel the excitement already? It's a festive month where my favorite holiday - Christmas is just around the corner. And after Christmas, we gonna countdown to a brand new year, 2013! I can't even concentrate on my work recently because I'm planning a short getaway. I'm in need of a vacation SO BADLY! I'll breakdown any time soon I swear.

Speaking of which, there's an issue that I've encountered lately and I'm really disappointed with that someone. For me, I always think that people are selfish, somehow. We just gotta accept the truth whereby we do take a little advantage of our friends, sometimes, for our own end (provided that it does no harm to anyone). To put it in a better way, we help each others. But to the extent of exploit your friend and abuse their kindness, that is way too far for me to neither understand nor tolerate.

As a matter of fact, in order to thrive and survive in these modern days, being materialistic and realistic are inevitable. However, do not use that as an excuse to make use of/hurt people around you, especially your closest friends and family, to serve the purpose of achieving your ultimate objectives. Don't you think that's pure unethical and immoral? After all, what are you with all those moneys and risk losing all your beloved ones.

 Its a shame that this happened and destroyed such a beautiful friendship. 2013, please be good to me and shower me with lotsa loves. I've had enough disastrous events for this year and I do need a better one :(

 Hola! Yours truly wanna be bubbly happy go lucky just like she used to be! :)
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