Sunday, January 30, 2011

♥Vain-ism :)

♥Love & To Be Loved

In need of a haircut! :)
I look like crap when my bang grows longer.

Time to chop off my bangs! :)

Was waiting for someone. So freaking late ZOMG!

Getting impatient~~~

Oh well, maybe I need eyebrow trimming as well :S

One last vain shot when my ride reached!
Ciaoz loves :)





XX! With much lurves, Caryne.

♥给我一个理由.

♥Love & To Be Loved







XX! With much lurves, Caryne.

Friday, January 28, 2011

♥永恒.

♥Love & To Be Loved







XX! With much lurves, Caryne.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

♥Forever Love :)

♥Love & To Be Loved

I miss them.



Jaclyn, Justhrin, Vivian, Dayah, Abby! I miss you girls! :'(



I miss college life.


We attend classes together. And we joined interesting events organized in college together. See, we even dressed up exactly the same for the Horror Night!

June Choo. The one who always bring me around for food hunting all around Penang. The one who cares for me. The one who bring me for snow beer! :)


I miss hostel life.




I miss working part-time with my loves.



I miss my long hair.




I miss all the fun :'(




And I miss the life where everything is so simple :(



HAH! Tot I've forgot to mention about you right? :P
Hehe.
How can I forget? :)
IMY!
My loverboy, Hendry Lim :)
P/s: Well, since we don't have a picture taken together YET! This is for temporary. We're gonna have alot of pics soon :)



XX! Much lurves, Caryne.

Monday, January 17, 2011

♥假装

我不需要无数的抱歉,不想要同样的重演.

假装 原来是那么累人.

假装视而不见 原来会更明显.

假装不介意 原来会让心更疼.



假装多好 我只要 只想要再拥有一秒

去相信你的拥抱 一直会让我依靠

继续等待 还心甘情愿的不想逃



假装多好 依然是暧昧的TONE调

一个人无理取闹 两人世界的煎熬

我被自己困在自己设下的圈套

像是驼鸟 相信时间是唯一解药

视而不见 傻到了无可救药


XX! With much lurves, Caryne.



♥Forever be my world :)

Love is unexplainable. I believe everyone has a list of requirements stating which type of boyfriend they wish for/want. But sometimes love doesn't work out this way. It's easy to find someone who meets your requirement, but it's hard to find someone who you are very fond. The feeling is inexplicable. Same goes to me. It'll never be rational, so when you're in love, friends are the one who keeps you sane.


Meeting you was fate, being your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.


I love him because:

He makes the cutest facial expressions. He sings to me. He kisses my forehead. He buys me flower. He insists I'm not okay even if I said I am. He knows when something is wrong with me. He makes me laugh. He can't mad at me for long time. He reads my innermost thoughts. He gives me sweet kisses. He hugs me like I'm his one and only one. He does things that I like, even if he doesn't like them. He allows me to pamper him. He loves me even with all my faults. He mocks me then he hugs me and kisses me. He shares his life with me. He understands me. He remembers every little bits of stuffs happened between us. His eyes, his lips, his voice and his smile.


How we stay up late talking for nothing. How he shows off his nose in front of me. How he makes an effort with my friends. How he texted me and called me when we were just friends. How he says he misses me. How he hold my hands. How he talks. How he sounds when he speaks Chinese. How he moves to beats of the song he likes. How he fall asleep. How he looks like when I apply skin mask on him. How it feels when he wraps his arms around me. How he reminiscing the past when we were just friends.


Taeyang – Make Love (feat Kush)

I never knew I'd find a love so true
This one right here, is just for you
Remember that One day
I held your hands then I kissed your lips then I told you
Our love was meant to be and always will forever
Give me that happiness I get from you just being there
I always see you when I close my eyes, you're on my mind
So can't you see, I need you right here wit me, close by my side
This time for sure, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart
Forever you're my girl
Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you and me
Forever you're my girl
Forever be my world
You are the only one | I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go
Even through the hard times
We made it through just fine
When it hurt we put in the work
To show that I'm yours
And that your mine
That's how we got this far
Let's never be apart
Girl, you're my queen
I'm here for you
'Cuz you're my everything
You always make me feel like everyhing's gonna be alright With the things you do, becuz it's you the real true love of my life
This time fo sho, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart
Forever you my girl
Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you & me
Forever you my girl
Forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go
uh... baby!
you know I'd walk them miles
climb mountains swith up styles
all I wanna do, is be with you
ain't no matter what, where and how
[right here and now] we can both get down [straight work it out] yeah
like that sound bump 'n grindin' perfect timin'
let's dine and both be proud
yeah yeah yeah
gonna take you on a joyride today
me and you stay true never hesitate
to make love -- sho nuff
you're the only one I'm ever thinkin' of
just to hold you baby I can hardly wait
as we go through the motions damn it's great
to make love -- sho 'nuff
we're gonna take it to the end and that's what's up
Chorus
You are the only one I want to spend my whole life with I know
Anywhere you are, that's where I will call home
So just take my hand and say that you will never let it go
Two hearts always beating as one forever more
Chorus
I'm nothing without you I'm nothing without you girl



I love you. <3


Lastly. As I promised.


XX! :) With much lurves, Caryne.

Friday, January 14, 2011

♥ 내가 잘 될거야

In fairytales, there's always happily-ever-after ending; in reality, things don't always turn out right. You stumble and fall, you're heartbroken, and the pain is not gonna heal facilely. So tell me, how does it feel to lose someone that you thought you could be with forever? We all have been there. Breaking up, breakdown, feeling like your life is shattered & your heart is shredded into pieces. & the worst part is, such ultimate grief is still there no matter how hard you try to get over it. Simply because you can't switch your love on and off whenever you like.


Since you can't make the pain go away, so why fight it? You'll feel even worse whilst you're struggling to suppress the pain, the fact that you're still missing him/her, the fact that you're losing the loved one that you once had. Don't fight it, just let yourself to breakdown. Allow yourself to be weak, allow yourself to cry out loud. Because you know, you're not going to feel like this forever. In fact, after this, you gonna stand up strong. You'll be much stronger for what you've been through. And just so you know, we'll always stand by you. <3 Always remember even when you lose the whole world, you're not gonna be alone. At least there's ME :) ILY!



And just a few quotes to share with you all. Lurves.


"You've never felt pain until you've felt love."


"I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more."


"I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing, but I can't help it, cause I'm in love with you."


"Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see them smile you suddenly realize you're just pretending you're over them to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours."


"Missing you isn't the hard part, knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart."


No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends.


Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.


You can't ever let go of all the feelings, but you need to let go of him.


I'm not sure what the future holds but I do know that I'm going to be positive and not wake up feeling desperate. As my dad said "Nic, it is what it is, it's not what it should have been, not what it could have been, it is what it is". - Nicole Kidman


I refuse to let what happened to me make me bitter. I still completely believe in love and I'm open to anything that will happen to me. - Nicole Kidman


Always remember DEAR, cry doesn't mean you're weak, it means that you really loved once.

A girl's crystallized tears are the most precious jewels.

So make sure that he worth it :)




XX! Much lurves, Caryne.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

♥Just A Dream.

Sometimes feeling can be very deceiving. You thought you're happy but deep inside you're struggling to conceal the worries and misery. You thought you're okay but why you're waking up in the next morning feeling barely able to breathe? Have you ever realized when things start to change, that it's not the same as it used to be anymore? And how ridiculous that you don't even know when you begin to give yourself all sorts of excuses that this is not happening.

As saying goes, a contented mind is a perpetual feast. But are you turning a blind eye to this OR are you being contented? You don't even expect because everything becomes so out of reach, it's funny how simple things become your greatest satisfaction. And that's all what makes you persevere with this.


张惠妹 - 人质

我和你啊存在一种危险关系
彼此挟持这另一部份的自己
本以为这完整了爱的定义
那就乖乖的守护着你
相爱变成猜忌怀疑的烂游戏
规则是要憋着呼吸越靠越近
但你的温柔是我唯一沉溺
你是爱我的就不怕有缝隙
在我心上用力的开一枪
让一切归零在这声巨响
如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎反正我也没差
人质在这一刻得到释放
相爱的纯粹落得如此下场
你满意吗我们都别说谎


Yours truly :)



XX! :)

Sunday, January 9, 2011

♥Hello 2011 :)

How fast 2010 passed in a blink of eye. Although this might be ABIT late but HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS!! Looking back what I'd done on year 2010, and some remarkable events that happened which mould me to who I am today, I felt unbelievable that I've come so far. Anyway, hopefully it would be a greater year ahead and it's gonna be much awesome ;)

Well, I'm a fresh graduate now. Hence, in need of a job! GRRRR, to be honest, I don't feel any excitement. I wish I could graduate with my close friends L I don't even know where to graduate now. Stupid Inti, they don't even bother to held a graduation ceremony for us. WTF. So don't go Inti. I'm gonna miss campus life a lot sigh. Going classes with friends, sleep in class, attending all sorts of college events, rushing assignments together, burning midnight oil to prepare for finals together. Ahh, it sucks thinking I'm not gonna be able to join y'all for that anymore *tears*

And it feels good being at hometown again. Spending time with family & hanging out with hometown friends.But somehow I found myself already adapted to Penang life. I miss Penang heaps L All the scrumptious food, outings & night life. So it's the best if I could find a good job at Penang, it's almost like my second home already, only with more freedom & no curfew =X Teehee! This is so embarrassing, I'm 21 but my parents still treat me like I'm 12. Urghhh!


Speaking of family, it's not a really good year for us. We faced a lot, went through a lot. Even though it's difficult for us to go through such major changes, but the love we have for each others hold us together and we're able to support each others through the worse. We lost and we gained. I should be contented as long as we're still together, my beloved family beyond great. And for those people who put my family in this situation, thank you. Because of you, we realize much important stuff. That money is not everything. Thanks to you, we sisters become closer; we're stronger and independent nao. Nothing is more important than my family. Trust me, they're the one who will be with you FOREVER, through both good and bad. They're the one who will be the most forgiving and swallow down whatever hurtful things you've done to them with no doubts.


And I don't know whether it's me who growing older and my metabolism system is deteriorating, I'm gaining weights. And wtf IT'S SO FREAKING OBVIOUS! Somebody please slap me! I need motivation; I must cut down my consumption and do more exercise. I think it's because of my weights, I don't even like to take pictures of myself or shop. Can you believe me, a super shopaholic freak, don't crave for shopping?! -.-

Besides that, I've been single for like… a year plus? And I'd been so reluctant to be committed in a relationship due to some bad memories. So I kept myself unattached until I met him. I decided to give us a shot, sooo we're together. The fact is I think we're from different background and hence different thinking. I know there'll be obstacles in the future but I wish we could overcome all of those together. I believe conflicts come two-sided.And when it happens; you can't just ignore it and pretend nothing happened. Because when you don't solve it, it's just a matter of time that the same problem would arise again. So if you really care, you would give the best effort and patience to solve the problems. If he/ she doesn't, maybe he's just not that into you afterall. People are flawed, so there's no fairytale relationship with no conflicts at all. We just gotta accept that everyone makes mistakes, including myself. So what really matters is we admit the mistake, we learn, and we'll do whatever it takes to get things right. It's ironic how you take years to gain trust and confidence but it takes a second to ruin everything. So if you ruin something, fix it even though it takes times and efforts. I believe a relationship can be sustained if both parties want to.I made the choice, and I'm the one who has to deal with the consequences. But I know I'm not alone. I still have supports from you all. I'll take in the advises and I'll be clear of what I'm doing. Let's hope things would be better in the future. Oh well, I believe in just go with the flow. If it's yours, it'll be yours no matter how. If it's not, it'll slip through your fists no matter how hard you grasp it. But I won't give up easily because I might regret later on. So yeah, I'll try my best! No regret right? Pray for me loves!*grins*

P/S: thanks for calling me in the middle of the night to make sure I'm okay. I'm such a lousy friend sometimes. It's almost like you're always there for me all these years, been through everything with me and giving me strength. I feel bad because it's like I only remember you when I'm devastated.I feel even worse when you don't even mind. I promise I'll try to be a better friend for you! :D Happy new year!



Dear Mummy & Daddy,

Happy new year! I'm sorry for being a stubborn and not understanding daughter :'( I promise I'll be a better daughter in the future :) You're awesome parents! *huggiesss*


Dear Tong sister,

Thanks for being supportive all the way sis! I'm the worse sis ever, but you're still showering me with loves and cares :') I love you lots and stay with sis forever kay? Just so you know, you're the best sister ever! All the best in your academy!!! *huggiesss*


Dear Ting sis & Jun sis,

I love both of you wacky sisters! :) Jie promise to be a better sister in the future aite? Study hard!!! :D


Dear Friends,

What would I do without you all by my side? J I can't even bare such thoughts. It'd be awful! Thanks for sharing my joy and tears. Hopping around with me when there's good news, holding my hands & urged me on with encouraging words, wiping my tears& hugging me& telling me I'm stronger than this for what I went through before, lending me shoulders when I need someone to lean to. How could I forget all of these? How could I forget who help me comes this far? *tears* Oh, I'm missing you guys already. I love you guys!!!


Say bye to 2010! :)







XX! :) Much lurves, Caryne.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

♥I’ll always love you.

♥Love & To Be Loved

For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others;
for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness;
and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone. -Audrey Hepburn-



I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles. -Audrey Hepburn-


I believe in manicures. I believe in overdressing. I believe in primping at leisure and wearing lipstick. I believe in pink. I believe happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day, and... I believe in miracles. -Audrey Hepburn-


I love you, bie.






Playlist: David Archuleta - Falling Stars




XX! :)